05 nov 08 - bad mood day?
apakah anda sedang bad mood hari ini? Saya sih sama sekali tidak. Tapi sudah 3 teman2 saya yang sedang bad mood2nya. salah satunya bahkan mengatakan orang2 di kantornya pun mengaku ke dia sedang bad mood. ada apa dengan hari ini? hmmm…… 
justwrite - 1Nov08 - first spill
aahh, ok. mulai dari mana ya. just need to write. express thoughts. why think anyway? but that’s another topic. hmmm…. i think i cannot think clearly yet. gw cenderung memasang mode ‘malas mikir’ ketika bertemu permasalahan yang butuh pemikiran. alhasil gw jadi (makin | merasa | mengira diri) bodoh. ah berat ah pembicaraannya. ganti dulu.
itu kapan2 aja pas lain kali dimana jam tidak menunjukkan pukul 4 pagi. oops, 04:54 pagi tepatnya. yak, gw belom tidur!
ada yang bilang (my own brain) bahwa gw orgnya serius. segala topik bawaannya langsung berat dan filosofis. aaaaahhh, i don’t want to be like that. [why?? what's wrong with that?] I dunno. mungkin apa gw merasa kurang bisa ‘fit in’ atau jadi ‘asik’ di antara temen2 gw?
tapi kayaknya blom ada yang komplain secara frontal ke gw deh. heeyy, bukannya mau care less about what other might be thinking? just be.
i think i’m an old soul.
apa sih, topiknya loncat2 ga jelas gini. [bodo... justru ini kan gunananya [yak, ngetik udah mulai ngaco] gw bikin jurnal ini…. mengatur pikiran, berlatih mengutarakan pendapat dan pemikiran].
hmmm, sambil liat download-an, udah 60% dari 26MB. Cepet loh download malam (err… pagi, err. dini hari gini)
. Dan sekarang udah 66%.
68
hehe
*scratch* i don’t know who i am. or whether or not i NEED to know who i am. what’s the point? am i trying to control my life and refusing to just let go?
a bit sleepy now. tidur deh abis downloadan selesai.
ADD nih. ngetik iya, mikir iya, cek download-an iya. as usual.
i think i’ll accept the job offer. yes, slaving away in an office once again. let’s see how long i’ll stay this time. looks like a great environment sih. plus, it has a cool acoustic guitar at the office. tehee.
it seems like i am going in reverse. i tried to regain childhood innocence after a premature maturity. trying to be younger when it is time to let the maturity blossom comfortably. ooh, i know. i do it to keep it from rotting away.
balance it out.
yah. ciao bella. i almost wanted to say ’sorry this entry does not make sense’. but i decided not to, because i do have the right to make a gibberish entry. it only costs <2kb of storage space and perhaps around 10kb bandwith anyway. *cough* geek *cough*
Avril - I Can Do Better
Satu lirik lagu yang baru gw perhatiin kemaren ini, dan bener2 empowering, did not notice it before. Nice Av, finally something in your song i can relate to:
Couldn’t give a damn what you say to me
I don’t really care what you think of me
Cause either way you’re gonna think what you believe
There’s nothing you could say that would hurt me
true true.
All there is to life?
if one day you woke up and realize that you already achieved all your goals, are living your dream. will you say “okay, that’s all there is to life. i am grateful”, step out of the bed and shoot yourself on the head?
Sharpening my mandarin skill
Started a new blog yesterday on wordpress.com called “Xin Vocab” (http://XinVocab.wordpress.com/). ‘Xin’ (pronounced as in “to lie is to sin“) means “new”, and ‘Vocab’, from ‘vocabularies’.
I decided to start the blog to sharpen my rusty Mandarin. I notice that my current difficulties are mostly in vocabularies. In a sense that I have a solid grasp of the grammar, but stumbled upon unfamiliar terms.
It was like this when I was watching news broadcast on a Chinese TV station: “Our president (just quoting the news, my actual president is SBY, lol), Hu Jintao held a meeting with the prime minister to discuss about blah3.. due to emerging economic crisis that has affected the People’s Republic of China. The result of the meeting will be blah3 to be discussed further on blah blah blah.”
Basically, I get the main point, the person who does the action, the action itself, and the whole structure of the news, but lose most of the meaty details.
It’s like “XXX does XXX to XXX because XXX”,
????
lol. yeah anyhow, I have made commitment to stop procrastinating and being lazy and start to grab some exceprts from news, articles, paragraphs each day and really look it up, really understand and digest the meaning. I hope I can increase my working vocabularies in Mandarin because I don’t want to let my native tongue go to waste like that.
Hope it helps you learn Mandarin too. Let’s chat! hai yaa….
Public speaking - Lesson 1
lesson from project 1:
start with points. else you will forget or leave some out. if you start with composed full sentences, and then try to memorize them or say it sequentially, you are bound to leave some out. or if the time is not enough for you to finish the whole speech, you can always speed up the remaining by just giving out the points.
I am just me
I am just me. I am not better than other people, not worse, not even the same. I am just me.
that’s freeing.
competition, judgement,
social conditioning
human nature.
why are we killing ourselves?
who are we kidding?
20 Sept 2008
Dropped my cellphone today, and the lucky streak stopped. I now have a pink line on the screen, lol.
Discovered that Dale Carnegie’s “5 Essential People Skills” is perfect for my needs. Learn to be assertive. Just started listening to the audiobook now. Will post some digestible summary and points later.
ah, ngantuk. ikut bazaar mendadak, launched a venture. Helped me launch, give me sense of urgency. And I learn quite a lot about setting up a booth at bazaars. Not quite worth the money, yah, I’ll consider it a lesson learned, lesson earned. investasi laah…
Anyway, the venture is: professional resume writer. I have set up the temporary website here: http://jasakarir.wordpress.com . I’ll start promoting it and add contents, which is easy. Because I have taken the first step: to stop planning and START doing.
Wish me luck!