Avril - I Can Do Better
Satu lirik lagu yang baru gw perhatiin kemaren ini, dan bener2 empowering, did not notice it before. Nice Av, finally something in your song i can relate to:
Couldn’t give a damn what you say to me
I don’t really care what you think of me
Cause either way you’re gonna think what you believe
There’s nothing you could say that would hurt me
true true.
Sharpening my mandarin skill
Started a new blog yesterday on wordpress.com called “Xin Vocab” (http://XinVocab.wordpress.com/). ‘Xin’ (pronounced as in “to lie is to sin“) means “new”, and ‘Vocab’, from ‘vocabularies’.
I decided to start the blog to sharpen my rusty Mandarin. I notice that my current difficulties are mostly in vocabularies. In a sense that I have a solid grasp of the grammar, but stumbled upon unfamiliar terms.
It was like this when I was watching news broadcast on a Chinese TV station: “Our president (just quoting the news, my actual president is SBY, lol), Hu Jintao held a meeting with the prime minister to discuss about blah3.. due to emerging economic crisis that has affected the People’s Republic of China. The result of the meeting will be blah3 to be discussed further on blah blah blah.”
Basically, I get the main point, the person who does the action, the action itself, and the whole structure of the news, but lose most of the meaty details.
It’s like “XXX does XXX to XXX because XXX”,
????
lol. yeah anyhow, I have made commitment to stop procrastinating and being lazy and start to grab some exceprts from news, articles, paragraphs each day and really look it up, really understand and digest the meaning. I hope I can increase my working vocabularies in Mandarin because I don’t want to let my native tongue go to waste like that.
Hope it helps you learn Mandarin too. Let’s chat! hai yaa….
Public speaking - Lesson 1
lesson from project 1:
start with points. else you will forget or leave some out. if you start with composed full sentences, and then try to memorize them or say it sequentially, you are bound to leave some out. or if the time is not enough for you to finish the whole speech, you can always speed up the remaining by just giving out the points.
I am just me
I am just me. I am not better than other people, not worse, not even the same. I am just me.
that’s freeing.
competition, judgement,
social conditioning
human nature.
why are we killing ourselves?
who are we kidding?
Social conditioning
@tre: New word, old concept: “Social conditioning”.
It is the word that represents all the ’should’, ‘could’ and ‘would’ in human life. Expectation, stereotype, ‘ideal’ parent, ideal child, ideal person. What’s good morally and what’s bad. Which religion to follow and which to condemn.
I think, up until now, (and i am not saying it won’t be the case in the future), i still live under heavy social conditioning. If not, what made me do all the things a 23 year old ’should be doing’ and ’should have done’? Get good grades at school, go to good college, hand out my papers on time, graduating on time, getting a ‘real’ job after college, get a descent salary, more recommended at a medium-large company.
All for what? What’s the purpose?
Run the rat race, chase after ’success’ and acknowledgement. When you are there, you realize that you are back to square one. Plus with everything to lose, everything that comes with the success becomes a burden, and you are left with no time to even LIVE.
I have always had this opinion that every single person is unique. and nobody must force or be forced to become someone they are not, or do the things they don’t naturally lean towards to.
But nonetheless, don’t take this too seriously. I am not a wise-ass. This is just part of my growth, it’s one point in my journey. Journey with no destination, lol. But it doesn’t matter. What counts is the ups and downs.
Anyway, I am currently looking for some reference on how to articulate my thoughts more clearly, express ideas, communicate concepts. I think there is still a large improvement area for my communication style. I aim to reach these three states: assertivity, brevity and clarity.
I am also trying to get more comfortable to be under the spotlight instead of squirming away and let others be the center of the attention all the time.
Ok, so from what I have gathered so far, to convey something clearly, I have to have thorough understanding on whatever I want to say. I actually know this. So perhaps, I don’t really have problem in conyeying ideas. My problem lies in understanding ideas. Haha… that comes out funny. How come this is? I am extremely good with abstract concepts, philosophizing. huh, perhaps that’s why.
Concrete ideas get communicated, fuzzy, up-in-the-cloud, socrates-y ideas are for pure entertainment.
Action plan: Play with different concepts, practice describing them in my own words. Use my sleepy lazy brain, wake up wake up!
Some keywords that will help in researching this topic:
social conditioning, convey ideas clearly, think clearly, communicate effectively, articulate thoughts clearly, communicate what you think
too many tags = ambiguity = bad communication. hahaa….
[mindump] multitasking, lack focus, ADD! lol
multitasking, lack focus, ADD! lol
duh gw bener2 ADD nih, wkwkwk… ADD yang muncul justru pas udah gede, ADD yg diciptakan sendiri. I just can’t slow down, must be active all the time. i am active but not productive.
analysis paralysis pt.2 (mindump)
mencari jalan paling mudah, paling cepat, paling handal, dan paling menguntungkan untuk maintenance jangka panjangnya
Akhirnya? over engineering. think too much, cannot make decision.
I have told myself over and over again, “I cannot have ALL information I need and then make the BEST decision”
it.is.okay.to.make.mistakes
Flownya kira-kira seperti ini:
terlalu banyak ide dan jalan yang bisa dipilih -> bingung memutuskan -> stress -> merasa tidak produktif
Ibaratnya supir taksi yang hapal mati jalanan jakarta, jalan besar, alternatif, tikus2, pintas, dan jalan2 lainnya.
Penumpang A masuk ke taksinya, minta diantar ke senen. Dalam kepala si supir taksi yang menderita analysis paralysis terjadi dialog spt ini:
“senen yah, hmmm… itu bisa lewat xxx, tp muter dikit. kalo dari arah yyy bisa langsung, agak macet sih. apa lewat abc ya? lebih jauh tapi lancar. ah, bensin udah segini lagi. apa gw isi dulu? pom bensin di deket mana ya yang enak. duh kalo gw ke pom bensin yg itu, gw harus lewat zzz dong. dari situ bisa tembus ke xxx sih. gimana enaknya ya?”
Doeehhh, cape deee….. just pick one and get going already!
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it is enough just to feel good. that makes all the difference
it’s all in my head. what i radiate
assertivity, brevity, clarity
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one essential skill for programmers are recognizing and understanding patterns in applications and systems, and then knowing where to find them again when he needs to implement his own version.
cause that’s what we do, basically. copy, paste, and adjust.
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gonna set up an online store. wpmu, i think. easy to hack. easy to expand.
came across a blog post about execution of ideas. i can add one more characteristic to my list:
“over engineering”
to save time in the future. over engineering, spending too much time planning for things that might not even happen
anyway, wordpress is one heck of a software. well written, good code architecture. clean, pretty good documentation
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discovered gossip girl on TV7 :p. The actor who plays nate is smokin hot. lol
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ah duuh, cerpenista keluarrrr. i want to create thaat….. :p
itulah, salah satu manfestasi ‘mere ideas are frickin worthless’, haaahaha…. implement! release early, release often.
huh.
uuuhhhhh
hahaha good lesson. success is not just a binary switch away, ideas are not everything. Yet it is not also about execution. Ten people might have the same idea, 3 might have pursued it, and perhaps only one will succeed. pursue/not. it’s not that simple
Terjungkal ke tempat yang lebih tinggi
Ketemu mata air, tersandung batu di tepian.
Benjol dikit, tapi terlontar ke tempat yang lebih tinggi.
Begitulah kira2 sebulan ini. hiks. Looks like I must be more patient and also work harder to realize my goals, or more importantly, realize what my goals are. Hmm… optimistik terus yah. ganbatte!
Sepanjang waktu terus belajar, dan mendapatkan hal-hal baru, makanan dan persiapan bagi mentalku yg masih belum matang. Tapi ketika hal-hal tsb belum bisa dirangkai menjadi sesuatu yang menghasilkan dan dapat dirasakan panca indera, it feels a bit frustrating and suffocating, jadi limbung.
Ayolah, stabil dikit…
Mantapkan secara perlahan… kendalikan pikiran dan keinginan. Tata perlahan, dan lakukan.
I need continuous support and reassurance, and I think it’ll be up to me to provide them, lol.